"Ya no vayas a esos lugares, sino cuando tengas treinta vas a estar solo con cinco gatos; yo espero que cuando tenga treinta ya este casado"
Palabras de un chico que me encontré hoy en el gimnasio, al cual conocí en Sodome. Ese noche se acerco y de su boca salio un muy tímido "Hola" eventualmente cuando Rudy llego por atrás y abrazo mi cintura, entendió que Rudy estaba marcando territorio y después se fue.
INCONGRUENTE
El domingo de la semana pasada despertamos juntos, en un hotel barato. Esa noche nos venimos tres veces, dormí sobre su pecho, lo abrace de cucharita mientras el dormía, me dijo que me veía hermoso acostado en una cama de sabanas blancas mientras la luz de un día nublado llenaba la habitación. Es uno de esos momentos que quieres que dure para siempre o que se repita infinitamente, afortunadamente a veces cierro los ojos y me masturbo pensando en la temperatura de su cuerpo y en la sensación de su pene entrando en mí... el olor de su sudor, la fuerza en cada embestida, el color de sus ojos avellana.
Justo cuando el sudor de su frente empieza a caer sobre mi espalda es que se que esta por eyacular.
Hace quince días que pasamos la primera noche juntos, me mando un mensaje diciéndome en resumen, que se sentía confundido por que el no ha terminado con su novio y por que el quiere que seamos amigos. Incluso yo mismo, estoy sorprendido de mi. No hice drama, no me enoje, ni llore, ni grite, ni me exalte.
Le dije si eso es lo que quieres esta bien.
Después me llama amigo, y cuando nos vemos me toma de la mano y me besa en el cine.
Al fin aprendí a ser paciente; por otro lado no se que esperar, por que lo ideal sería no esperar nada de esto. Han pasado dos días sin un mensaje de él, y sin uno mio también. Pero se que piensa en mi como yo pienso en el, lo se porque cuando logra sentirse relajado y confiado, siempre cita alguna frase que dije antes, tiene muy presente que La Sirenita es de mis películas favoritas, que la frase "You got that James Dean day dream look in your eye" es para él, sabe que amo el ICEE de cereza y también porque cita mis tweets literalmente.
Y si este es el fin, no me queda más que afrontarlo y dar gracias por vivir eso.
"Wildest Dreams"
He said, "Let's get out of this town,
Drive out of the city, away from the crowds."
I thought heaven can't help me now.
Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
My one condition is
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, wildest dreams, oh, ah.
I said, "No one has to know what we do,"
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound,
Nothing lasts forever but this is getting good now
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
And when we've had our very last kiss
My last request is
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, wildest dreams, oh, ah.
You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just pretend
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your (just pretend, just pretend) wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, oh, ah
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, ah, ah.
Drive out of the city, away from the crowds."
I thought heaven can't help me now.
Nothing lasts forever, but this is gonna take me down
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins
My one condition is
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, wildest dreams, oh, ah.
I said, "No one has to know what we do,"
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound,
Nothing lasts forever but this is getting good now
He's so tall and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
And when we've had our very last kiss
My last request is
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, wildest dreams, oh, ah.
You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
You'll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday when you leave me
I bet these memories
Follow you around
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just pretend
Say you'll remember me standing in a nice dress,
Staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again
Even if it's just in your (just pretend, just pretend) wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, oh, ah
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams, oh, ah, in your wildest dreams, ah, ah.
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